Chronic Stress

So I've received rejection letters from the following schools: UC - SD, LA, SB, and Davis. Warmly welcomed by UC Santa Cruz and left in suspense by UC Irvine. It depresses me knowing I got owned so bad. I don't even know how I found the will-power to write this post at attempt #3.

I haven't had the ability to sleep before 12AM these past couple of days due to frantically checking my email for word from Irvine.

I'm happy for my friends who have somewhere pleasant to go next year. Getting into college is like proving you're smart enough to belong with people at your same level of intelligence. Although I know I'm smart enough to go to Irvine, SB, and Davis, the fact that the UC admissions don't believe I am disappoints my family and somewhat my friends. (aka, "that dumbass is going to de anza/santa cruz next year? what a loser")

I had more to say but I've lost the will to write anymore.