There's a lot of things I would enjoy bloggin about at this moment but I'll rain check it for you guys since I just gotta say one thing.

Something about this moment in time, right now, for me that I'm really liking. I'm content and happy with my life. Its a time in my life I don't want to end but like they say about when you hit rock bottom... there's only way to go, up. For me... I've skyrocketed and you know how it is, you can only shoot up for so long before you start falling back down again.

So here's a post for right now. In future times of wack ass shit and bad times, I'll look back and read this post and remember that these are moments I live for. If it weren't for the bad times, the good times wouldn't feel this good. Thanks for all of this, I appreciate every single detail.

Back To Basics

Relationships are tricky. When you're young and don't know jack shit, you unconditionally love aimlessly. Ridiculous as it sounds. The funny part though is that you somehow, without changing a single pattern for what you do, land yourself into a relationship. Lucky? I don't think so. That's just how its done.

I wouldn't say I'm old or that experienced with relationships but I've had my fair share. The older I got, the worse it got or it just seems more complicated. I have these tendencies to figure out and do things I should be doing. Like a robot lover or some shit. Pretty pathetic, I already know.

With these new habits, I kept putting myself in situations I didn't want to be in. I felt more lost than I did for my first crush. Its not a fun place to be. Then I asked other people for advice. "What the FUCK am I doing wrong?" "Is this fucking natural?" (That's what she said.) "OMFG! I'm dying alone."

Then I asked a really close friend of mine that gave me the best advice in the world. "It shouldn't be this hard. Everything should feel natural." Those two sentences clicked every piece of shit scatter puzzle piece in my brain together right there and then. Instead of being fucking mature and learning from everything I've been through, I should just not think too much about it and let my four chamber organ take the reigns.

Thanks for the advice, Big Rich. Good luck to me errr one.