David Rush - Shooting Star

After high school, life got pretty fuckin real for me. Back then I felt everyone around me was at the same point in their lives. We were young and didn't have to worry about growing up. Now things are starting to get a little more complicated. I watch as people, the same age, begin to drift apart from the stages in their lives. I'm not sure if this is as apparent to everyone else my age but its definitely daunting on me.

Its so easy to be living in the moment and have fun. Its so easy to fall into the vicious cycle that I dont want anything to be a part of. When I get to look back on college, I want to say... those were one of the best days of my life. At the same time, I know there will be fun times after college.

I want to experience ALL that life has to offer. High school was a rough road, but that stage in my life is over. As much as I miss it, gotta keep up with the times. As scary as it is to think about, I'm taking on college now. Life isn't as easy as they were where I was just going through the motions. I have to keep on top of my priorities, constantly remind myself where I'm at and where I'm trying to go. Never forgetting that the fun is more rewarding when I put in the hardwork.

i'm not a lazy person. don't stop and fuckin chill. Stay HUNGRY.

In the past month or two, ive written tons of blog posts and either gotten too tired or i would get sidetracked on what else i was doing. i love and miss writing. blogging is something important to me.

here it goes.

somethings, if not everything, you wish for just dont come true.

everytime a shooting star or another birthday passes me and i get to blow out candles, i make a wish. its not habit that has driven me but me and my hopeful thinking that a wish will come true. as much as i want to continue to believe this... wishes just dont come true. nothing has shown me otherwise.

i hate sounding like a downer or a "negative nancy" but the truth is our lives are a product not of what we have dreamt of. almost everyday of my life... i pictured myself happier. yet i feel this very mindset is why im here today. without this disappointing dynamic in life, i would lack the drive.

i was convinced that happiness is where you dream to be. false, happiness is reality. the only reason why you cant dream of what is in store for you in the future is because it's not something you can create with just your mind. reality is created by everything that is you. just yourself.