The end, the beginning...

So high school is over. Everyone tries their best to think about all the good times but inevitably, you think about what you regret. The biggest thing I regret about high school is that I was a big pussy. The one thing that didn't allow me to make the best of my time in high school is the fact that I was too scared to take what I want.

I was too scared at races, so I choked all the time. I was too scared to go for wrestling/football, "I'm too small to play so I'll just play hockey cause I can at least skate", I was too scared to take Art 1 as a freshmen cause I mightve gotten a B in an elective and took it senior year instead... surprise surprise.. i shoulda been in art4 by now, I was too scared of what people thought of me, i was too scared of everything and it held me back from being who I am. I try to be loud and confident to hide away my lack of self-confidence.

Here's my chance to be myself and take on life balls out. I quit track, I'm done with high school.

Raw.

Graduation: Up and Coming

We are about to experience the whole world and what it has to offer. A world beyond Monta Vista. What we take with us on the journey that lies ahead is our experiences and memories we shared. The challenge we have yet to face is making a world out of the new world we step into and the world we step out of.

So my parents bought a new house in Los Gatos and we don't get to move in till july since the people that own it dont leave till then but my apartment contract is up in june due to my parent's excellent planning. rofl. anyway I have to live with my brother from now till then.

Moving into my brothers place i had to bring my turtle with me. I hadn't seen my turtle in so long cause we kept it in such a very discrete place in my apartment that I completely forgot I even have a turtle It's sitting next to me here in the living room right now.

After forgetting about my turtle for a while I realized that since I'm graduating soon... there are a few of my friends, like my turtle, that I forgot about. This year, being senior year and all, I made a conscious effort to try and talk to these people but I can't. Our conversations remain at a mere shallow level of intimacy. Its so sad because these are the people I grew up with and grew to love so much. I guess its because of my immature ways in the past that imprinted a bad impression of myself in their minds. If I hadn't worried about what others thought of me and enjoyed my time spent with my friends, then things maybe would have turned out differently.

I wish that maybe one day they'll forgive and maybe forget someday. What I hope for the most is that I'll get an opportunity in the future to rekindle these irreplaceable relationships.

Till then... college is my new opportunity to start over new and not make the same mistakes I had made in my past.