You spend your whole life thinking the grass is greener on the other side. When youre young, you cant wait to get older and experience what life has to offer. The older you get, the younger you want to be. When it comes to time, you always want to be somewhere youre not... I say enjoy the moment while it last. Very few of us live in present tense but the times where we are completely here, at this point in time, we're fuckin happy.

Sophomore year... lezzz do it

its fuckin 3:22am and i'm still up. i tried laying in bed... didn't work. just to be straight, when you got a girl on your mind its hard to sleep. girl gtfo my head so i can get some rest for my eyes!

on a side note:



I don't know how many girls in the world wore a pair of sneakers... nikes or chucks or whatever it may be to prom but for those who did, you are sexy. haha you can call it a fuckin fetish or whatever you want but a girl in a dress with a pair of sneakers rocks any nurse or secretary costume any day. nothing puts a smile on my face more than when i see pictures from prom with shawty rockin them sneakers. you are awesome.

There's a lot of things I would enjoy bloggin about at this moment but I'll rain check it for you guys since I just gotta say one thing.

Something about this moment in time, right now, for me that I'm really liking. I'm content and happy with my life. Its a time in my life I don't want to end but like they say about when you hit rock bottom... there's only way to go, up. For me... I've skyrocketed and you know how it is, you can only shoot up for so long before you start falling back down again.

So here's a post for right now. In future times of wack ass shit and bad times, I'll look back and read this post and remember that these are moments I live for. If it weren't for the bad times, the good times wouldn't feel this good. Thanks for all of this, I appreciate every single detail.

Back To Basics

Relationships are tricky. When you're young and don't know jack shit, you unconditionally love aimlessly. Ridiculous as it sounds. The funny part though is that you somehow, without changing a single pattern for what you do, land yourself into a relationship. Lucky? I don't think so. That's just how its done.

I wouldn't say I'm old or that experienced with relationships but I've had my fair share. The older I got, the worse it got or it just seems more complicated. I have these tendencies to figure out and do things I should be doing. Like a robot lover or some shit. Pretty pathetic, I already know.

With these new habits, I kept putting myself in situations I didn't want to be in. I felt more lost than I did for my first crush. Its not a fun place to be. Then I asked other people for advice. "What the FUCK am I doing wrong?" "Is this fucking natural?" (That's what she said.) "OMFG! I'm dying alone."

Then I asked a really close friend of mine that gave me the best advice in the world. "It shouldn't be this hard. Everything should feel natural." Those two sentences clicked every piece of shit scatter puzzle piece in my brain together right there and then. Instead of being fucking mature and learning from everything I've been through, I should just not think too much about it and let my four chamber organ take the reigns.

Thanks for the advice, Big Rich. Good luck to me errr one.

My brother's girlfriend was part of the Cherry Blossom Festival in San Francisco a few weeks back. Cherry Blossom Festival is this competition between girls that compete to be the queen, which is basically a really cool Japanese-American girl. Its like an Asian Miss America thing.

After watching my brother's girlfriend on stage, we decided to go to this really good sushi restaurant down the street. It was an awesome meal. One of the best quality sushi I've ever had. It better be though because it was so fucking expensive. A roll was between $15-20/each, and we had like at least 10x plus beverages.

As I'm sitting on the toilet that night, I got up and looked down. There goes at least $100.

As a freshman in college, people expect you to be mature. You're 18 years old, living on your own. This may be a big step. Little do you know... the childhood still resides inside of you. Here's a funny observation I've made in college.

My professor is a freakin doofus, he tries to make the dumbest jokes but hes not funny and no one laughs. This is how my last lecture played out..

*Professor makes a stupid joke*
*No Laughter*
Professor: "If you take this atom and this other shit...."
"LOL!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!!"
Me: "What'd he say?"
Person Next to Me: "HE SWORE! omg, so funny."


College students. Love it.

"More than anything, I wish I can be there with you."

I remember this summer was suppose to be the least academically stressful for me, and it was. Although this was the case, I had a lot of other things that stressed me out. I don't really want to go into detail about the things that stressed me out because ultimately when you talk about something too much, it makes it a bigger deal than it really is.

As these little things dwelled in the back of my head as I was doing all these exciting things during the summer, I saw genuine smiles on the faces of my friends. I dealt with it and eventually college came where things are playing out very nicely for me. I'm really enjoying my time here and I'm taking my time to be thankful for what I got.

I know that even though I'm having a great time with my life, that's not the case for everyone. This post is dedicated to those people that are not having an easy time right now in their lives. Keep your chin up. Don't run and hide. Stand up to those challenges in your face. We all go through the ups and downs. When things get really bad, just remember, the good things that lie ahead will be that much better.